Octoberfest

Last night i went into the uni bar for october fest - it was a good night, although the part that i had to walk home was really really cold!

anyway - when i was in there, i was talking to some mates and i turned around and who should be there but Amy and Meg (Emma's mates) so i smiled and went to talk to them.

and then emma sat down nest to me.
agh! what are these people doing here i thinks. this isnt cool!


but i got over it - sure i had the whole emence jealousness going on but not like i ususally do - when i saw her dancing with people or draping her self of this guy i didnt really have the ususal rithing hatred... i dont know if it was the alcohol of my current mind set that women in general are a waste of time and emotional energy.
i did take note that em does like older guys tho.

knowing myself, i know that i can keep fooling myself of that for a while yet, but its not like i'm going to change who i am - i get to emotionally attached, its like its something that i need.

i told a friend that what i want in a girl is someone who i can basicallly dote on. because i have some fundimental "need" to exert this pent up emotional stress.
"I have it here, all i want is some one to let it go on"


but enough of this.

all in all it was a good night.
i managed to get a lift back most of the way from town, so thus only having to walk about 30, 40 minits. and in that time a called a mate and we talked as i walked through the moon light.


well sory for the inability to spell, again i was just going off, so - no real idea as to what i have just typed.

keep safe, yours - Moi.